Seeing Things Clearer

{Find a job you love and you'll never work a day in your life}

There's nothing like writing down what you are thinking and realizing how silly you sound or how wrong you are. It's funny what putting pen to paper {or in this case keyboard to laptop}can make you see or hear or feel or understand. It has a way of showing a new or different perspective. 

I was catching up with a friend and telling him where I was in life, career wise, settling down wise and so on. I told him that where I was working had lots of room for growth but my heart wasn't in it. I continued to tell him that my passion/heart was in nonprofits/charities and one-for-one models like TOMS Shoes. My interests were in the needs and problems of third world countries like hunger, clean H2O and equal rights for women and children. I then told him that I didn't know how to get involved.....

In the same paragraph I told my friend that for whatever reason I just wasn't ready to settle down quite yet. I wasn't  ready to buy my first house or have children. The only hiccup was I really liked being back with my family. For those of you, who don't know, I traveled/lived someplace other than Lima, Ohio for about eight years. I missed a lot of holidays and birthdays and anniversaries and it is really nice to not miss them anymore. The only problem with being home is that home is quiet and small and doesn't offer a lot of the things that Nathan and I want in our lives. 

It depends on who you are talking to, that causes you to see things differently. The friend that I was talking to is very motivated and goal-oriented. He knows what he wants and how to get there. He has no excuses. So obviously as I am writing him I hear my excuses....don't know what I want to do, don't want to leave my family but don't want to settle down, don't want to stay in my current profession for life.....Thanks Scotty for making me see things a little more clearer. 

As I am writing I see the holes in my reasoning. I may not know how I'm going to be involved in third world issues but I know I'm interested and it's my passion. As much as I don't want to move, I have nothing holding me back. I know that my current profession is not long-term. At this point I just need to start researching every company that I like what they are doing and find interesting. I need to research companies in Ohio to see if  something is close to Lima. I just need to jump in with both feet and stop making excuses. There is always going to be sacrifices in life when pursuing your goal and I may need to start......

I'm not going to make any life-altering decisions however I'm going to stop making excuses and start living. The toughest decisions in life are never easy.